Again.
Not for lack of words - they roll around in my head all the time. But as stated from the beginning of this blog (okay, by "Day One" post) and my friend, Liz, pointed out - I avoid writing. So here I am - avoiding.
Again.
Have you ever loved doing something so much that your biggest fear is failing? Have you ever loved doing something so much that your biggest fear is succeeding? I'm pretty sure I suffer from both of these. But in the end, what does it matter? I swim around in my own words, struggling to write. Struggling not to write.
I've tried a plethora of tools to aid in my writing - pencils, pens, typewriters, computers, laptops, books about writing, books about not writing, digital voice recorders, tape recorders...
I thought maybe if I got a degree - or two (yes, thinking three might be the trick...). Maybe if I had a room to shut myself into (which I promptly gave the kids) - maybe if I went out in public...
Maybe if I stop using ... and - I could come up with something good. Maybe if I stop using the word "maybe" in every sentence...
Words rolling and riding with no etc and no dashes to hinder the flow. Building sentences, thoughts, and ideas into a story. A moment.
That moment. Where you're hooked into the life and love of some character created out of someone's imagination constructed of real emotions with dream-like qualities. That instant when visions of another world fill your soul. The moment where you visit a land built purely in imagination.
If only someone can find the words.
I'll keep looking for them and get back to you.
I ranted almost a whole page about maybe this maybe that, but then hit post before realising it wanted google account, and couldnt hit back button to post anonymously!! anyway upshot of it was that you just have to STOP maybe if I do, maybe if I dont, what will so and so think, maybe they wont like it,maybe it will suck, maybe it will be brilliant, just MAYBE I am right so MAYBE you should write !!!!!<3 xx
ReplyDelete<3 you back, nutty BritSis xx hehe
ReplyDeleteYou mention going out in public. You know what I like to do? Go to "public" and when you see a person who catches your interest, write their story! It's fun... try it!
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